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Sorry. I'm just who I am
Saturday, July 9, 2011, 10:23 PM
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This is what happens when I'm emo.
Date: 8 July
Hello.

I feel like I am not learning anything.
I keep repeating the same mistakes again.
I think my pride is still there and I am not changing.

I am to change others and work for the Lord, but I myself is not doing anything.

SIGH...

When can I understand the true meaning.
When can I learn the real definition of life and love.
When will I start talking to the Lord more often.

I just feel I am not doing enough.
I know that it's not by works that we are saved. For we are saved not by works but for works. But I just think I'm still stubborn huh...

I'm very fickle minded I know.
One moment I'm happy. The next thing I know, I am unhappy, stress and emo.

AH...

I need help, I need help, I need help, I need help.
I want love, I want love, I want love, I want love.
I want care, I want care, I want care, I want care.

Sometimes people are just busier that another day. But I just feel they neglect me.
Sometimes people do not listen to what I say, they just had their own advice and thinking, ignoring what I want to tell them and do.
Sometimes people just acknowledge you without knowing you are hurt by their actions.
Sometimes people just need a little chat and a little talk on the phone, but no one is there for them.

Sorry, I juts want to talk, be more natural.
Perhaps now I really know, NO one can always be there, helping, serving, loving, caring for you.
Perhaps sometimes people misunderstand the intentions of others and make another party feel upset.

I know this matter has been stucked in me since a long time. In some occasions, I just cover it up, and move on in life.

OH WELL...

I just hope assumptions will stop occurring between us and sorry.
I know I keep saying wait, give me time, sorry etc...
But I hope people will start trusting me in what I say and do.

I need your trust, I need your help.

Sorry to make you unhappy/irritated/pissed/troubled. Really.

Well, that was me like yesterday.
I carried on today, with a bigger n biggest scolding and ignorance. Oh well... I deserve it perhaps.

I think I ought to think and reflect on my own actions before I go and judge people and make them feel like they are a jerk, making me feel self pitiful and sad and little and helpless..

I think I ought to change in my attitude and I ought to change in my behaviour.
I think it's time for me to reflect on my own actions and not others as well...
I think it's time for me to know that I'm also at fault and not the other party that is at fault.

I'm the bad, evil, naughty, cunning, worst person.
I make people feel bad about me, and I make people look like a fool.

Well...

Now that person is probably having some problems with the phone and probably I just hope that all accusations and assumption and misunderstanding will cease fire.




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