Then we went to macs and study. Then later we study 1/2 way, 4 Korean girls sat beside us, QM was very astonished and flabbergasted by their speech.

Then it was around 1 plus already, and Valerie was suppose to come to my house.

Then I went to pick her up at west mall. Then still quite early, so we me and QM decided to go to Yellow and check bags out.

Then later at Sing-tel, we saw have free smses for the i-phone 4. So we went to prank Mr Lim, sending this: "You owed me money." then after awhile, we sent this: "I'm someone from our class, better reply or die." Then later I sms-ed him with my own phone, then he say he lazy play with us. Very funny. If you were there you would LOL.

Then went my house, baby brother sleeping, then super quiet. Granny go home so super shut up also. :P

Then QM and Valerie ate cup noodle, sadly, I had rice. :(

Then we went in the room, on the air-con, amazingly, really did homework. Haha.

Then later finish already, we went back to Beauty World, again. Then we went there, then we looked at stationaries etc. I stayed here for 7 years and went to Beauty World so many times, I never liked it. BUT... I didn't know the basement of Beauty World had so many nice things, cheap, and not fake goods, better than China. :P

Then later, we went to macs to do homework again.

Valerie needed to go home, so me and QM, went back to west mall, again, looked at that bag, again, played the i-phone, again.

Then I went to look for my grandpa. Ah... this is the part which my title comes in...

Then I went there, cough and cough, like going to have heart attack, then grandpa force me go see doc. But I don't want, cause mom will scold me, cause I never take care of myself.

1. Eat chips, spam them.

2. Never eat medicine, at all.

Then he give me $30 go see doctor.

Then I told Mr Lim the storm is coming. He ask me what storm. I say --- storm. I thought instantly he will know it is mom storm. Then he send me, 3 letter words can be horny you know. I wasn't even thinking of it lor.... What the heck. Then I send him, is not sex, is mom.

Then he reply, you naughty girl, think sick. Then we argue argue, play play, then I was forced to see the doctor.

Then go there super cockster. The doctor spam ask question I just keep saying no no no no.

Wah I thought I was in there for only about 2minutes, so consultation fee should be $11 or less. Should not be more. The medicine they give should be quite standard. But, I see the bill. My heart drop out. Wah!!! Its $43. Then no choice use own money go and pay.

Then I met granny downstairs. Then she say on top have crazy woman caning. I kiddingly and a little seriously plead her, say( in Chinese): "I don't want go home can? Please I beg you, I don't want go home, I go your house stay can? Please I beg you." I look back, and I laughed.

Then later go home, mom say this: "Take out your shoe, put down your bag, I want to deal with you." Whoa... My heart go up and down, left and right, forward and backward, like rocket zoom all directions. Scary.

Then I sit down, she say, what happen this morning? I say I no manners and very rude. Then she say, just one word, you are fucking rude. What the hell? I already apologised to her on the phone already lor... What else she want me to do, kneel down infront of her meh? Then cut long story short, I lazy explain.

Then later I go toilet call Mr Lim, then later talk to him for about 12 minutes, still cannot beat record of calling Zf for an hour. Whoa...

Then I go eat medicine, and sleep lor...

Then now I wake up already, then eat cup noodle, then later going JP with the clique, then later going Valerie house with QM, then tomorrow my school books come.

End of by saying this.

I don't like lying. But I keep doing it.

I don't want to deceive her. But I keep doing it.

I don't want to continue doing this. But I have no choice.

I must put a stop to this.

I must put a stop to it.

I must stop lying.

I must stop deceiving.

This cannot continue.

I want to change.

I want her to change.

I don't like Samantha Tan, I really don't.

If there is anything I really want, I want back the old Wendy Tan.

I want Joshua Foo and Wendy Tan back together again. I don't want just Wendy Tan, and I don't want just Joshua Foo.

I want the two of them back together again.

Really.

I would like to go to church with her like last time, praise God together with her, I want to change my lifestyle, making my Saturday afternoon and my Sunday morning entirely for God and God alone, nothing can stop me from going to these places, my perseverance will continue.

Why do I have the perseverance for these things but not for others, what is God trying to say to me.

I met Mr Lim, he introduced me this, I made my life complicated myself by wanting to go to his church. Why can't I stay put at my own church. Why do I feel convicted to go there. May I know the reason? This is what that is puzzling inside my head.

That is all I have to say today.

Goodbye.

GRACE FOO

◄ BACKWARD

FORWARD ►